I really suck at giving advice.
I have all these grand opinions and things that I want to say but when I try to voice them or write them down they sound so lame and not at all like what I had tried to say.
Also, my thought process seems to be very different from other peoples.
I tell people how I'd deal with things and they just think I'm retarded.
They're all like 'yeah Laura, that might work for you but we all know that your feelings are messed up'
Well gee thanks guys, you're all just jealous cause I have ways that I can deal with my problems, unlike all of you I don't want to wallow in pain and self-pity.

Want to see the best advice I've ever given?
'Being in control is fun. If she has no opinion then embrace your role as master.
Either that or tell her to man the fuck up then slap her one'

You have qualified for the VCE

Your 2010 ATAR is: 80.10

Art

• GA 1: C+
• GA 2: B+
• GA 3: C+
• Study Score: 29

Biology

• GA 1: B+
• GA 2: A
• GA 3: B+
• Study Score: 35

Chemistry

• GA 1: C+
• GA 2: B+
• GA 3: B
• Study Score: 30

Literature

• GA 1: B+
• GA 2: B+
• GA 3: C
• Study Score: 27

Further Mathematics

• GA 1: A+
• GA 2: A+
• GA 3: A+
• Study Score: 41

I would currently kill for this:

Books

I want books for christmas as I can't think of anything else that I could possibly want.

• Paper Towns - John Green
• Looking For Alaska - John Green
• Will Grayson, Will Grayson - John Green
• An Abundance of Katherines - John Green
• Liar - Justine Larbalestier
  

To be continued.
P.S. I'd appreciate some ideas :]

Life Rambles Of Unimportance

Life is looking up again, for a moment there I was like 'Shit, now what do I do?', but it's all good, I again have purpose.
a) I have a job
b) I have a challenge >:]
I will totally ace my job and I will achieve my goal or so help me god, I will end life as we know it on this planet.
I've moved to my dad's house, not the nicest of places but I'll make it nicer, another job to keep me occupied. He's got a couple of weeks off work though, which makes it harder for me to clean...
On the upside, I'm buying new bathers on Thursday and then going to Port Fairy on the weekend.
I want bather bottoms with a skirt on them and I'd been looking for ages and then I found some.

'See you are a total tease :p Who else would tell a guy they plan to get with a girl?'
Ah Mr Kelly, I do enjoy teasing you, my friend.
And he wants me to share; not likely! He has his own girlfriend.
Greedy bastard.
But seriously, I'm totally going to gay night in Bendigo on Friday, it's gonna be epic!

Okay, shall we look back on past events now?
Firstly, we have failed love, hooray for that!
He tells me he's not into me, I get angry instead of sad and then I stop caring.
People were all like 'Laura you're not reacting correctly to this situation'
Well fuck you guys, cause everyone is different and I reacted in my own way.
So things were good and then one day I realised I actually found him annoying and I felt a mild disgust at the mention of his name.
Now, that's not right cause we're meant to be friends
So yeah.

***UPDATE***
'Ok I'm just going to come out and say it...If you came over...God the things I would do to you...Sorry for being so blunt but I may as well just tell it to you straight...'
Hahaha, I am greatly amused.
But yeah, what can I say? I'm irresistible.
Back story to this guy: We went out for about 6 months in 2008, had a fling in 2009 and I now want him back.

Abi, if you're reading this then HI!!
I'm sorry things have been weird between us lately but I promise my feelings for you have not changed. (God, it sounds like we're in a relationship :p)
I'm just going through a rough patch, trying to figure out why I feel like I do but still wanting to appear unphased.
And essentially, for the most part, I feel like I used to, back before my emotions broke free from their confines, okay I can't concentrate anymore, this text message conversation is getting...interesting....

Things I want for my new room:

• Fairy lights
• Beanbag
• Posters
• New curtains
• New rug
  

Me: Yes. So Im just going back to how I used to be I guess, but that's cool, I can deal with that.

Him: What do you mean how you used to be? Are you going to be alright?

Me: Of course Im going to be alright, what, do you think Im going to fall apart or something cause you dont love me? Oh boo hoo, lots of people dont love me. Ill get over it.

Him: Alright. That's good to know then, hate to leave you crushed.

Me: Pfft, you dont mean that much to me

Him: I didnt? But you cried the other day..

Me: Yeah, but between then and now, I guess I stopped caring

Him: Whys that?

Me: Because I have the ability to just not care.