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Christmas is soon xD
And you know what that means!!
PRESENTS!! I mean...family time *shifty eyes*
I haven't even finished my shopping yet D:
Ahhh welllll....

I hate human emotions D:

Jealousy, I despise it.
And it occurs over the most stupid things.
So what if he's talking to some random on facebook, right?
I mean, we're not even together, not even close to being together
I used to always pride myself on not being clingy
This actually caring about someone sucks arse D:
I always feel as though he really couldn't care less if he spoke to me or not
And I know that I'm looking into things too much, but I cant help it
He's told me numerous times that I never annoy him
And that he loves talking to me and spending time with me
And just loves me in general
But after not seeing him for a while doubt just seems to creep in
Arghh, shut up Laura, you douche bag
Go back to doing what you do best... Come to think of it, what the fuck do I do best?
I am average at everything.
Drawing, writing, school work, singing... All average.

...I frustrate myself...

But on a lighter note, here's a joke:
"There’s two fish in a tank.
One turns to the other and says ‘You man the guns, I’ll drive’"

Arghh!

I was on the bus today right, and these westies got on.
There were two kids and their deadbeat mother.
And they were interrogating this girl who is in the army
You could tell she was uncomfortable but they kept asking her questions, demanding to see photos and touching her stuff.
I really felt sorry for her.
I was tempted to strike up a conversation so the bogans would leave her alone.
What is happening to Victoria, people?
We are being overrun by fucking ferals.

Identity

I am currently watching this movie on win called Identity, I'm not to sure why it's called Identity though. Perhaps it is a journey into one's self just like Heart of Darkness?
Although, obviously not as deep because the average person wouldn't understand.
Does that make me above average?

Holy shit!
It is a journey into his self, into his many selves.
This man has multiple personalities and one is a murderer.
This movie is actually quite amazing.
And I was totally right about who the murderer was!
Oh yeah, oh yeah.
*dances*
I recommend watching it, it is quite good.

Oh dear, last minute twist, I should have know it wouldnt be so easy.

When I was going up the stairs
I met a man who wasnt there
He wasnt there again today
I wish, I wish he'd go away.

I'm going to see Inglorious Basterds tomorrow, perhaps.
Im excited because it is about Hitler and her facinates me, I am currently trying to read Mein Kampf.
It's heavy reading D:

A bit more rambling.

I am totally watching Law and Order UK, doesn't that make me so awesome?
I usually hate Law and Order, but I love the accents.
I also like the SVU version, cause at the start it says 'Sexually based crimes are considered to be especially hanus'. The word hanus just cracks me up!
Anyways, they're interviewing some kid about another kids murder, he's a little shit.
All these people are really ugly.
Have you noticed that the average english person has terrible english? They never pronouce their t's.

I just made chocolate fudge brownie slice, it smells awesome, I would eat it right now, but it's really hot.

I HATE the continental ads!

Oh my god, I want to see Inglorious Basterds! It has Hitler, he cracks me up.
Im currently reading Mein Kampf, really heavy reading, it's going to take me forever.

And again it is 12am

Perhaps this is blog time?
..No? Okay then...

I have been playing wii for the past few hours, I totally own at bowling.
But I really suck at baseball and Iceage annoys me.
I guess Im just not a video games kinda person.

I have A Day on Broadway tomorrow, I really don't feel like doing it
But oh well, too late now xD

I spent the day at Annie's house today, we bummed, it was nice.
We bought hashbrowns and cream in a can
(We didnt eat them together though xD)
And we watched Goldeneye
'Finish the job James, blow em all to hell!'
Hahaha, the memories from my childhood that brings back...

There's static on the airways
I try to find a light through all this haze
I can't find the words that I'm trying to say
So try to forget me as I walk away

Shouldn't I feel alive?
I swear that I've tried
To be alright
To sleep at night

A Breath of Sunshine by Scary Kids Scaring Kids
(It be stuck in my head)

Meaningless Mutterings

I am at Annie's house and it is nearly 12am.
We're listening to the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and attempting to write songs.
I succeeded in writing one, not sure if it's any good though.
I called it 'Without a Story to Tell There is Only Words'.
I thought I was clever xD

Aaaanyways, Maddi totally conned me into creating a blog, not sure why.
Perhaps she wants yet another way to stalk me..?
On subeta, on deviantart, at school and now here, will I never escape her?! xD
Nah man, I'm just kidding, I looooove youuuu! *cough*

So yeah, Ima post the song I wrote now, sorry for it crappyness.

And there's nothing
Inside or out
Nothing I can do
To change that
Nothing I can see
Though I try to ignore
There's nothing to
Forget anymore

What happens when
there's no story to tell?
Do you cease to speak?

Take a breath
and close your eyes
You don't need to
see the world again
It's only repeating itself
Over and over
And it's making me dizzy

I have a feeling
That beneath it all
There is only
emptiness

My beginning
Forget the end
It won't mean a thing
Once we accend
Everyone has said
All I have to say
And they'd do a
Better job anyway

This is what happens
without a story to tell

Take a breath
and close your eyes
You don't need to
see the world again
It's only repeating itself
Over and over
And it's making me dizzy

So take a breath
Close your eyes
Remember what it
is to feel alive.

It needs A LOT of fixing
but I think it's okay for 12am :D